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Apr. 24th, 2008 | 12:39 am

This journal has seen better days. I update way more on my other one --

That is all.


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Dec. 9th, 2007 | 01:57 pm

"I will come again" by bobby birdman

let it go and grow until you cover me with curly tresses
in my arms i'll raise you with me on my lap and under dresses
until i draw the breath
until i see the death
but in that dying something else is truly trying something tells me
what it is will rise again
i know i know
what i need or what i am i put in you and hope to grow

oh what a day oh what a night
would i have you wrong to write
between the line and through the rapture
til i find what i am after

oh i will come again
promises can truly do me in
but nonetheless i'll make them to ammend
oh i will come again

set it free and know that if you can love it you can let it go
said if we above that can't believe it has it there below
here it is oh there it lies
no need to fear it has no eyes
it doesn't seem to surely show
what does it mean is surely known

oh i will come again
promises can truly do me in
but nonetheless i'll make them to ammend
oh i will come again


soooo good.

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Dec. 1st, 2007 | 01:29 pm

ughh why am i still so bummed? this is so stupid. i need to get my shit together and get the fuck over it.

i just woke up, it's like 1:30 and now i'm waiting for my adderall xr to kick in and looking for my cigarettes which i can't find for the life of me. i'm also listening to the raveonettes album chain gang of love because i haven't listened to it in so long and now i can't stop. so good.
fuck, i think i lost my phone too haha. oh god i'm a mess.

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Nov. 30th, 2007 | 02:43 pm

bleedingx3show: PS i've been listening "unpretty" by TLC for the past couple of days and like crying because boys don't like me?

paullpedersen: O PLZ

paullpedersen: Yeah

paullpedersen: boys don't like you

bleedingx3show: no i'm serious

bleedingx3show: it always turns to shit

paullpedersen: because you're really attractive and skinny and listen to cool music and are funny

paullpedersen: I'm sure that's a real turn off

bleedingx3show: i'm dead serious though

bleedingx3show: i'm always the girl that guys want to hook up with because they're so against having girlfriends

paullpedersen: That's every guy at this age

bleedingx3show: and then the minute some hideous delia's-clad disaster floats by they're all about *MONOGAMY*

paullpedersen: HAHA

paullpedersen: delia's

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Nov. 28th, 2007 | 11:10 pm

safe to say this has been the worst day in quite sometime.

oh and i started smoking again starting tonight. chainsmoking, i should say. already half done with my first pack. awesome.

i feel like shit in every way possible.


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Nov. 22nd, 2007 | 12:31 pm
music: angels with dirty faces - sham 69

happy thanksgiving, everyone!
i'm so tired from last night ... i went to high voltage for the first time since the summer. it was so much fun, i loved seeing everyone again. fucking JOEL MADDEN was there looking frowsy and fat and rolled up in a stretch limo with purple lighting effects and ZEBRA PRINT decals on the sides of the fucking car. what a tool.
now i'm going to help my mom cook for 500 people ... alex is coming with marika and catherine and anthony are coming for dessert later so that should be fun. i'm excited, i just feel like absolute shit. i woke up feeling really really sick ... it's subsided a bit but i'm still kind of nauseated :( whatever, i'm just not going to think about it. haha i hope everyone has a great holiday!

PS malinda monster i miss you so much baby :(

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Nov. 14th, 2007 | 02:35 pm
music: pressure drop - the clash

ughhifijjveiuch vd i feel soo weird. i went to the GI for an endoscopy today to see what the fuck is up with my stomach and why i always feel sick. apparently i just have really bad acid reflux and in conjunction with my horrible anxiety, the result is me being nauseated 24/7. awesome. it wasn't that bad, i just had to wake up super early..and they hooked me up to an IV and i don't remember anything after that until they woke me up and i was fuuuuuucked up. it's wearing off now (booo) and now my chest hurts =/ i didn't go to school or work today but my mom went to AA and got me the satin night jacket that i wanted in gold because my store doesn't have that color in stock yet :) she also got me a few pairs of boyfriend sweatpants a.k.a fucking HEAVEN because my store doesn't have those either. now i'm drinking green tea and watching old episodes of america's next top model. i might have a few friends over to play CRANIUM haha because i don't want to go out feeling so icky.

last night was fun though. i ass raped the first part of my film midterm somehow..i have no idea how i managed to write an entire, coherent, decipherable essay on a subject i know absolutely nothing about...but i managed to do it. then at 5, i met up with thurman and we went to AA to pick up scotty for din din. catherine came too and we all walked to red bamboo. we all laughed and talked the whole time and it was just a lot of fun :)

i should probably clean my room before peeps come over. and take a nap because i feel dead. later kiddies<3

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Nov. 11th, 2007 | 12:01 pm
mood: bitchy bitchy

i'm in a really bad mood so if i bitch you out don't take offense (unless you deserve it) ... people have just been pissing me off so bad lately. also, my mother is having a brunch today with my cousins ... shoot me in the face. fuckkkkk this. most useless weekend of my LIFE.

PS ..hahaha:

"If all your friends are morons is it a felony, a misdemeanor or an act of God if you blow their fucking heads off with a thirty-eight magnum?"

- American Psycho

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Nov. 10th, 2007 | 03:46 pm

today has been good so far. i feel like i accomplished a lot.
i woke up at 9:30 feeling like garbage and saw a bunch of texts from my work babies from last night. it sounded like a lot of fun and i'm sort of really bummed that i missed it. hopefully something will be going on tonight with everyone.
then i watched "monkey trouble" (HAHA) and drank a lot of coffee ... got dressed, went grocery shopping, and jogged up and down ocean parkway. now i'm fresh out of the shower, looking for plans for tonight, and about to make the world's most bangin salad. if anyone wants to hang out tonight, IM me or message me on myspace or something because my phone is still malfunctioning :(

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Nov. 9th, 2007 | 04:53 pm

on a scale of 1-nauseated, i'm like a 70. good god. i missed class today (shock me) and it's freezing/pouring. if anyone thinks i'm leaving my house tonight, i regret to inform that you're gravely mistaken. the only way i'm going out is if fucking Jeffrey Hyman a.k.a Joey Ramone comes back from the dead and personally escorts me to wherever it is that my presence is requested. until that happens, you're shit outta luck so please stop texting me every 3.5 seconds.